|from the heart____
||[Oct. 17th, 2003|03:56 pm]
|||||Placebo - Drowning By Numbers||]|
Comment posted in Hajies journal. Why posting? Cause if Hajies sees this it will remind how much she is a good person [or how I think that way], but the last bit will also explain my shitty mood.
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Ok, for the [truthful] enlightening bit:
You're not always at home, but if you wanna go out and play pool and go out and stuff on Sundays, then sure - would love to go out more with Hajies.
But whats so fucking brilliant about getting drunk at parties? 'oh I was totally out of control last night', yeah great - amazing fun. If people our age feel they can only have a good time while pissed, that's their problem - don't go thinking you're not normal cause you don't drink alcohol to the extent of falling over.
I haven't been to a party in years. Probably ever, unless you count Leisure Centre six year old shit. We have YEARS of partying to go... don't take it to heart.
Haj - guys DO like you. Sure, maybe not the guys you want to like you but remember the guys who asked you out? And your swimming club mate, etc etc. So you are not unloved.
Is 'getting off with someone' the be all and end all of the universe? Sure its nice but in my opinion I'm not big on grabbing the nearest guy that I don't like much just to say I've done it.
I know it's hard being shy. I'm a hypocrite when I tell you to go and speak to Neo cause I'd probably be too shy too, but you have to find it in your heart to try!
Do you honestly think you're ugly? Then I can only tell you bluntly - Shut up. You are not. What else can I say? But I'm telling the truth, and please don't think you are.
On a less positive note - just because I happen to play pool with a mate on Saturdays doesn't mean I am 'abandoning you'. Hajies - you are my best friend in the world ever and nothing will come between that! So maybe I do see John a lot on Saturdays - we don't get any other time to see eachother.
I know you probably felt shit when you got all worked up about false notions of abandonment, but you were totally out of order to call him a pervert. Fuck it, I know its harsh but I don't care - it was out of order.
Hajies, bestest buddy, I lurve you and I don't want you to feel bad - you are a good person - so get out there and smile and don't let any idiot get you down. *hugs*